Another New Year

I had high hopes for the new year. I was excited for 2010. A decade was behind me. I saw a status on facebook that said "This decade I:....and I thought that would be interesting to sum up the last 10 years.

This decade I: married my best friend, and found a church home. We started our family- which started out shaky with, preterm labor, twin micro preemies, a loss of a baby girl and becoming a mother. We added another little one who came 6 weeks early, lost a little one very early on, and added one more who went full term. I got baptized along side my wonderful sister. We bought a house, and sold a house and moved a total of 6 times. I emotionally supported my husband through 4 job changes and 7 months of unemployment all while he made sure I could keep my role as a stay at home mom. I watched my mother beat cancer. I celebrated 9 years of marriage with my husband. I watched two of my children start school. I made lots of forever friends and watched as a best friend moved away. With the support of that friend, we started a business we had always hoped to do and I was able to continue it on my own. Life was getting stable, our faith was strong, we were approaching "the best years of our life" as we headed into our thirties...The decade was ending with another twin pregnancy, a boy and a girl, with hopes to a fantastic new beginning with great things in store for all of us.

I look back at the last 10 years and can't believe all that we went through and how fast it went. I experienced life in a way I could have never imagined, I grew and changed from those life events. Those 10 years were hard, but amazing. Each year that passed we had hoped it could only be better then the last. Amazing my husband and I were able to hold on tight to each other and our faith even though there were many difficult days. We had crawled up from rock bottom and dusted ourselves off. I was ready to see those 10 years be of the past and excited to what the next 10 had in store for us. We are in the process of completing our family, rounding it out with twins again, Kyle excelling at his job waiting for the next step and climbing the ladder. With hopes his job would fall into place so we could purchase a home again in the coming years. Watch our children grow into adulthood, as our oldest will be graduating high school at the end of this decade. Its crazy to think about what the next 10 years will hold. I can only imagine it will go just as fast as the first ten, maybe even faster.

2010, the year of hope.

Unfortunately in our life, it seems that history repeats itself. We are beginning 2010 with another loss of a baby girl..shaken faith and heartbreak. Starting in fear and trying to find peace and comfort. Wondering what will this next decade really have in store for us...I am having trouble finding that hope I thought there would be. I am clinging on to the precious little ones I have, a husband who loves me, our families and my faith to get us through this. It can only get better right? I am scared to think of how it could be worse.

I am also blogging about this pregnancy and was planning on updating and everything after worked slowed down and the holidays were over. Well that has taken a new twist as well, you will find the link above. So bare with me, the best thing I ever did was start this blog and I love that I have record of years past. I don't like resolutions, but this is a goal I have, to get the good the bad and the ugly recorded again. This last year seriously slacked.